Harder than necessary

These prereqs are kicking my butt! Not the classes, just the logistics. :/ It looks like I'm going to be taking four classes at four different colleges - and no financial aid for any of it :( I took the A&P I at a local community collge ($700 - easy A) and, as you know, I'm trying to test out of A&P II through an online college ($250). I signed up for Microbiology at a community college right next to where I work, and found out it's going to cost me $1450!!! Damn! So I tried to apply for federal aid. The nice lady at the FAFSA office told me that student aid should cover all of it (individual classes at different colleges). The nice lady at the financial aid office at my nearby college told me that I can't get anything. Apparently Pell Grants are only good for undergrads, and student loans are only good for 6+ credits per semester. My measly 4 are gonna cost me a boatload. I was hoping to take my final class, Chemistry, at this same nearby college, but they don't seem to offer it in the evenings. Grrr.... So now my options seem to be find another college, or switch to part time work this fall or next spring and take classes during the day. I *never* thought that the logistics of the prereqs would be so damn hard. I hope this isn't an omen of things to come.

Brain mush

It occured to me today that the reason (in part) I'm having so much trouble focusing on my studies and figuring out where and how to take classes, how to pay, scholarships, etc... is that for the first time in a long time I really truly need to think. I need to use my brain and really read stuff. Wow! I haven't done that in a long time. It sounds dumb, but really. This occured to me at work today when someone asked me a question and I said "I don't know" and they said "Ok" and left. My job is such that I really don't ever think about much. There are tons of problems that could be thought about, if I had the time and desire, but I don't. It's just too easy to ask someone else. Hmmmm.....

A whole new career

Sometimes it strikes me how weird it will be to have a whole new career. Things that I'm used to doing and consider myself good at (web design, development, etc.) will no longer matter in my new life. I also find myself looking forward to the day that Alan and I can work together again, then I have to remind myself that that will no longer be an option either. It's just weird to think about.