Brain mush

It occured to me today that the reason (in part) I'm having so much trouble focusing on my studies and figuring out where and how to take classes, how to pay, scholarships, etc... is that for the first time in a long time I really truly need to think. I need to use my brain and really read stuff. Wow! I haven't done that in a long time. It sounds dumb, but really. This occured to me at work today when someone asked me a question and I said "I don't know" and they said "Ok" and left. My job is such that I really don't ever think about much. There are tons of problems that could be thought about, if I had the time and desire, but I don't. It's just too easy to ask someone else. Hmmmm.....